Posts

Endometriosis

-
I suffer from Endometriosis. What is that? a condition resulting from the appearance of endometrial tissue outside the uterus and causing pelvic pain, especially associated with menstruation. I have suffered from this on and off since approximately 2012, One surgery in 2013 and then another in 2017. I thought after the 2017 surgery (and I was very hopeful) that it was the end of this journey. But, I was let down yet again.  My journey has been up and down, emotionally and physically. At my low times I've hated myself, my body and the burden I am being on my family. From what is normally one week of having period, felt like being a three week process, one week break and then back into a three weeks of depressed state.  I wanted to journal my day to day on how I feel, the pain, not to seek sympathy, but to release the anger, the sadness and the frustration that I have. 
Post a Comment
Read more

Study thoughts

-
Study thoughts?? Who would've thought at the age of 21 (actually 30), that I would finally be ready (or so I thought) to study! What am I studying? something called Data Analytics... and yes, its really as nerdy as it sounds. For those who don't know, its a lot of numbers, trends and well analyzing. (Funny how they make these job titles so daunting and scary sometimes) BUT if you ask me, it feels like Im studying topics that did not interest me and it has me doubting whether or not I'm going to make it through the remaining two years.  As always, lets just take it back a big stride towards the start of my "journey" and the how I got to today. Did I sound like those voice-overs on the corny movies? Yes?! Choice! It was honestly a spur of the moment that I had. For the first time in my career lifetime of (14+ years) I was finally thinking of career choices. First it was a: I'm bored here (a.k.a current job) I don't really have an interest to p...
Post a Comment
Read more

September 2019

-
Guess who survived September. Me! of course It's been kind of busy/hectic/crazy time! Its been full time work, full time mum duties, full time study and then just to be extra , a bit of family commitments on top! What can I say, I like being crazy! How did I do it? A very supportive husband and a very mature responsible 10 year old. Lets go back a bit, since we all like those once upon a time moments. It all started on a cold windy day, when I was a small girl. NOT! Anyway life at work has not been cruisy, but i can definitely say that im very settled and sometimes the monotony (do you like that big word?) sometimes, the come into work, complete daily tasks, go home. Well, all of that was becoming a bit... boring. Dont get me wrong, I like being comfortable, but I have one of those, love challenges, love being pushed personalities. Mrs Boss pulls me into the office and starts throwing around the word 'study.' Straight away I was a 'Nope, cant afford part time...
Post a Comment
Read more

Two Weeks in.. Forever to go

-
Two weeks ago, I took one of the biggest leaps in life. I got married! I married my best friend, my partner of 6 years. I  frickin  officially have a husband. If you asked me a few years ago if this would ever happen. I definitely would have shrugged my shoulders and been like… ask him! It’s up to him! It’s all on him.  Because if you knew us then you knew it was him. It’s been a hectic 2018. Not bad hectic! More of a where-did-the-year-go sort of crazy. It’s now December the 1st and I’ve already been married two weeks. Two weeks later, I’m still finding I have moments where I have to think about whether or not it was all true, moments where I think back and wonder how and why the day went by so fast! I’m proud to say that I have no regrets  that I can remember . I (of course) have those moments where I wish things could have been better! But I’m so happy that I can proudly say that I actually enjoyed my weddi...
Post a Comment
Read more

First Ever

-
So, I had my FIRST EVER Wedding meltdown. I guess my feelings had been so cooped up inside, I had been biting my tongue for so much that I had just gotten to a point where it was all too much. At the end of the day it came to me feeling like; - I have very little control or opinions about our wedding. - I felt like I was being excluded from alot of decisions. - All decisions have to go through his Mum first, even decisions that can be made by him & I. - I am compromising on so much. But when will his mum compromise with us. -The wedding is not about us, it's about her. At the end of the day... I'm more than willing to compromise BUT all I ask is that I be included or feel included in some decisions. It's now a week later, I still feel low in emotions. I have lost the willpower, drive, excitement to plan the wedding. So at the moment things have just taken a step back. I really for hubby though. I felt he felt how bad I was feeling  and I think he was even in t...
Post a Comment
Read more

1

-
What can I say... or where to start. Ive time and time again wanted to do a blog (or journal, whatever the new in-word is) Where to start, its now February, life has been a bit hectic, crazy stressful, teary, happy. My life is full of emotions to an extent where its at times  so overwhelming that I cry. Lets just go back a bit. say? December 2011, no not that far. In December 2017, my partner of 5(ish) years proposed to me and of course I said yes. I couldn't tell anyone straight away as we both agreed we wanted to let our parents know first. Fast forward >> we were able to tell our parents, who by the way were happy. We were able to tell my parents, who were equally just as happy.  By New Years we had decided that we wanted to get married sooner rather than later a.k.a this year. It's now February, we have confirmed the date, the ceremony venue and the reception venue. Life has slowed down a bit but we now have nine months to go until our wedding day. We have...
Post a Comment
Read more